Why is it that I don't realize how much I want to be at work until my doctor tells me that I may not be able to go? =[ I went in for my 6 month appointment today and confessed that I'm still having contractions 5-6 times an hour most days (but not all day long) and Dr. H said that is right at the brink of 'unsafe'. Right now it's up to me if I want to continue working but I have to find a way to stay completely off my feet while I'm there which is proving to be impossible... I'm up and down grabbing things off the printer, getting things out of the inbox, and running to the bathroom fifty times a day... I already have students in charge of handing out and collecting papers and running errands as much as I can. Derek has put me on bed rest as soon as I get home but in reality I have an hour an a half alone with a toddler every afternoon. As much as I try, this child requires chasing. She doesn't really adhere to the 'sit and hang out' philosophy that everyone is wanting me to follow...
The verdict... I have two weeks until my next appointment and in that two weeks I have to find a way to reduce the number of contractions I'm having or I'm done at work. Financially, that sucks but thankfully we have salary insurance that will cover some of it. Emotionally, it sucks because even though I complain about work most days, I really want to be there and the thought of abandoning my kids already makes me teary eyed. I know they'll do fine without me but they're my responsibility and I want to be there for them as long as I can...
Why can't my uterus just play fair just this one time????
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
Total weight gain/loss: The scale this morning read 139.5... and I'm hanging on to this side of 140 as long as I can... That puts me up a total of 22 pounds. On a positive note, that is TEN pounds less than I was at this point with Addison! YAY!
Maternity clothes? Yup, pretty much everything has a stretchy waist now...
Stretch marks? No new ones but I'm starting to see some of my old ones coming back... oh joy.
Sleep: I'm always tired but I'm getting to the point where it's tough to get comfortable... it's about time to dig out the preggie pillow.
Best moment this week: Not really from this week but finding out the gender has been the highlight of the month =] and the shopping spree that followed...
Movement: Lots of kicks throughout the day and I can watch my tummy bounce around. He still hasn't kicked Derek's hand yet - my offspring don't like to cooperate in that department.
Labor Signs: Braxton-Hicks contractions every day, one trip to L&D so far with instructions to 'take it easy' and 'reduce my workload'... whatever that means.
Belly Button in or out? In... but shallow.
What I miss: My cute, skinny clothes...
What I am looking forward to: Mom and dad coming to visit in a couple weeks!!
Weekly Wisdom: 100 ounces of water is A LOT... 100 ounces of pee feels like even more. :/
Milestones: Announced our name for baby boy... Cohen Jeffery...
Sunday, January 1, 2012
Best book I've read this year: Before I Fall (Lauren Oliver)
Best place I've visited this year: That's a tough one because we didn't get to travel this year - I know it's going to seem ridiculous but my favorite memories from this year are of the weekends we spent in Vancouver and Portland while I was doing my ProCert. We stayed at the Embassy Suites, ate at Claim Jumper, and shopped like crazy. I don't however, miss sitting in class all weekend.
Highlights from 2011
Greatest lesson learned: life can throw you a curve ball at any time - spend time with the people you love and remind them about how you feel about them every chance you get
Hardest thing to overcome: the miscarriage in May
Favorite memory: Finishing my MA degree and realizing that I don't have to go to school again. EVER.
What I loved most about 2011: Watching Addison learn and grow EVER SINGLE DAY... she amazes me
Looking forward to 2012
A new skill I want to learn: I want to create an emergency preparedness plan for my family and have an emergency kit in place in the next year
I want to improve at: Being financially responsible... and be credit card debt free by the end of the year
Biggest goal: Be back in my pre-pregnancy clothes a year from today